Hello, and welcome back to yet
another inspirational podcast episode
brought to you by yours truly Carina.
I'm your truth speaker.
Truth seeker, truth keeper, and I'm so
glad that you are here with me today.
Hey, welcome back to Soul Medicine with
Carina Bull, you didn't ruin your life.
You built a life that made everyone
else comfortable and now you are
the one who doesn't fit inside it.
And if you've ever thought, is it
wrong of me to want to leave my husband
or partner, this episode is for you.
You stay.
You stay for the kids.
You stay because it's not that bad.
You stay because no one
else sees a problem.
And underneath that.
There's another story running.
I'm too old to start again.
No one is gonna want me.
I've already built this life.
I can't undo that now.
So you tell yourself
it makes sense to stay.
You think you're being realistic.
You think you are
protecting your children.
You think you are protecting your
future, but what you are actually doing.
Is using fear to justify staying in
something that no longer feels like you.
So you stay and over time you don't just
stay in the relationship, you shrink
your life down to something you can
tolerate, you model to your children that
love looks like endurance, not truth.
And you quietly teach yourself
that your life has already peaked.
Feel that.
Don't move past it.
That belief, it's too late,
isn't truth, it's protection.
Of course, your mind goes there.
Because starting again would mean
uncertainty, judgment, disruption, grief.
So instead of facing that, you convince
yourself there's nothing left to choose
anyway, but this is the part that matters.
Doing nothing is still a decision.
And it has a cost not just to you,
but to the people living inside the
version of you that you've settled into.
The next time you feel yourself
saying it's not that bad, just
pause and notice what you are
actually feeling underneath that.
You don't have to change your life
today, but you do have to stop
pretending you don't feel what you
feel because staying outta fear is
still a choice and it becomes a life.
So I just want you just to take a
moment, just place one hand on your chest
and take a breath.
And I want you to ask yourself,
where are you staying?
Because leaving would change everything.
Don't answer it.
Just feel it.
I am not here to tell
you to leave or to stay.
I help you stay with the truth you've
been avoiding without collapsing, rushing,
or overriding yourself so you can make
decisions from alignment instead of fear,
because when you can stay with the truth.
The next step becomes clear.
That's a space I hold
inside my women's circle.
Not advice, not pressure, not you
should leave or you should stay a
space where women finally say the
thing they've been holding in for
months or years where you are not the
only one sitting in that question.
The women inside that space say the
same things after I can finally breathe.
I didn't realize how much I was holding.
I don't feel alone in this anymore.
We don't rush decisions.
We slow the moment down enough for the
truth to actually land in your body.
And if you are at the point where
you can't keep carrying this alone,
the link is in the show notes.
And if you're not ready for that level
of depth, a 30 minute tarot session can
help you see the pattern you are inside.
Without being swallowed by
it, that link is there too.
This isn't something that shifts
just by thinking about it.
This is the kind of pattern that
needs to be met properly and it's
something I support women with directly.
If your system feels overwhelmed, even
hearing that the ground clear protect
meditation is a great place to start.
Not to fix this, but to help
your body settle enough to
actually feel what's true,
and the link is in the show
notes for that as well.
You don't have to decide anything today.
But you also don't get to
unknow what you feel anymore,
and just because it was
doesn't mean it will be.
And when you are ready to stop
holding everything together at the
cost of yourself, I'll be here.
Ready and waiting with love Carina.