Have you caught yourself thinking... “I don’t feel like myself anymore”? Maybe your life still looks mostly the same.
You are still working, parenting, answering messages, remembering what everyone needs and keeping everything moving.
You are still working, parenting, answering messages, remembering what everyone needs and keeping everything moving.
But somewhere underneath all of that, you no longer recognise the woman doing it.
In this episode, Carina explores why feeling lost does not always mean you have drifted away from yourself.
Sometimes it is what happens when the version of you who knew how to survive no longer fits, but the woman you are becoming still feels unfamiliar.
Because healing does not always feel like coming home straight away.
Sometimes it feels like losing the map.
In this episode, we explore:
- Why you may no longer want to return to the woman you used to be
- What happens when familiar survival roles begin to loosen
- Why saying no, asking for space or behaving differently can feel unsettling
- How the nervous system can mistake familiar roles for safety
- Why feeling unlike yourself does not necessarily mean you are going backwards
- What it means to become someone you have never had room to be before
If you have ever found yourself thinking:
“I just want to feel like myself again.”
“This isn’t like me.”
“I don’t know who I am anymore.”
“But I don’t want to go back to who I was either.”
This conversation is for you.
Because maybe you have not lost yourself.
Maybe you are between identities.
And maybe finding yourself is not always a return to who you were.
Sometimes it is finally becoming who you never had room to be.
Listen Next
If this episode opened something for you, continue with:
Episode 48: Who Were You Before Survival Taught You Who You Had to Be?
That episode explores the parts of you survival may have asked you to leave behind.
This conversation takes the next step by asking what happens when returning to yourself does not mean returning to the past.
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Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine.
Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform.
Music Credit
Music from Uppbeat
Mountaineer — Juciest
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Mountaineer — Juciest
License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ